When I reached 20 years of cleantime and was following the suggestions of the NA program seriously, keeping an open mind, I pondered a topic that interested me. When is an addict in recovery considered an oldtimer in the NA Fellowship? When I celebrated my first year clean, was I already a veteran? When I celebrated two, three,five, or ten years clean? Is an oldtimer the member with more than 40 years clean? I have wondered in silence about these and so many other questions, but I have never posed them in a group meeting, a private discussion, or with my sponsor. Instead, I forgot this simple curiosity and continued on the road of recovery, applying the Twelve Steps daily. In what seemed like no time at all, I celebrated my 20th NA cleantime birthday, and again this question and other doubts that I had laid to rest in my memories returned. I believe the time has arrived when others call me an "olderadult," an "old man." In one of my NA home group meetings, an attendee referred to his older fellow members as "these venerable senior citizens." I don't remember if I laughed or if I reacted seriously when I heard this strange expression, which of course lacked any connection with reality as far as I was concerned. Following the NA Twelve-Step program daily allows me to be a good example of living a dignified life to my daughters, and now to my grandson, and to the person who took a risk in her own life in order to form a family with me, my wife. I can see all these matters passing by in the video of my life, and I still continue to make errors.